Dear people, I don't mean to sound slutty, but pleases use me whenever you want. Love, Grammar

Hey guys, I know it's been a while, but I'm back and I have a great blog for you today!

So, as most of you know I'm currently in search of a place to live. I have decided that now is the best time for me to move out, and be on my own in this great big world. Why? Because I know that I have a lot of life lessons to learn about living on my own, and I'd prefer to learn them when I still have my parents around to help me through them. I mean, these lessons won't EVER be easy to get through, but being able to talk to people I trust, that have already gone through them, will definitely make it easier than it would be if I was facing it alone.

Anyways, why the title if this is all about my search for freedom, right?

Well here we go. 

Last night I was browsing through places, and came across a complex that had very reasonable prices. I decided to send their leasing department an email and inquire about what they may have available in Mid-August. I was pleased with their quick reply until I actually read the email. Let me note right now: This email is exactly how I received it, except for the red color change in areas that they could have been better.

leasing.summerridge	5:31 PM (16 hours ago)
to me

Our 2 bedrooms start out at 500 and go to 650 r 1 bedroom start out at 450 and go to 550 right now we have 2 bedroom available they range 550 625 at the present time. Come fill out an application bring 30 days proof of income and a current photo i_d on both of you you can pick up the application at 322 west 65th number 1 the leasing office there is a red n white sign in front at summer ridge

Now, as you can see, this email has no sentence structure whatsoever. There is one period, and one capital.. makes me wonder if two people didn't work on the same message. Now, onto the 'text lingo' or abbreviations. Seriously? How much longer does it take to type "are" instead of "r," or type out "and" instead of using "n." This just screams unprofessional! 

What's the big problem? Well the biggest problem here is that they are in contact with a potential client (me) and their choice of words, and lack of sentence structure make them seem uneducated. They also seem unprofessional, and the last person I would want handling my hard-earned money (my rent) would be uneducated, unprofessional people. Just saying. 

So my question is:

Seriously? What is the world coming to?

"Our 2 bedrooms start out at $550 and go to $650. Our 1 bedrooms start out at $450 and go to $550. Right now we have 2 bedrooms available, and they range from $550 to $625. You can come fill out an application. If you do please bring 30 days proof of income and a current photo ID. Because both residents are over 18 years of age, you would both need to fill out an application, these can be picked up at 322 W. 65th St. Number 1, in the leasing office. There is a red and white sign in front, that says Summer Ridge."

There's my 'semi-professional' rendition. I'd be more likely to respond to that email, than the one they sent. 

Thanks for reading my rant! Haha. 

Talk to you soon!

-Auni

Better Life -- Conditions

Hey everybody!! (:

So as most of you know, yesterday was my birthday! And I'm officially no longer a teenager.  With this new chapter in my life, I'm hoping will come a new wisdom as well.  And I think that new wisdom showed a glimpse of itself tonight.

I was getting ready to go hang out with some friends (which I did NOT finish, just to type this).  I was playing music on my phone and a song by Conditions came on.  It's called "Better Life" (thanks to a friend of mine who introduced me to this song).

The line in the song that shows the main message says:
"I know most of the time, it's hard to keep in mind... with lessons learned comes better life, better life."

And I truly believe it's true, because I'm starting to learn who truly cares about me and who doesn't! And in figuring this out, I can drop those who don't and give more to the friendships of those who do. Sometimes I feel like I give so much to anyone and everyone, and never get anything in return. It's kind of depressing really.

So with this lesson learned, comes a new Auni.

I may not flat out confront you, and you know who you are.  But there will be a difference in how close we are. 

Just sayinn. <3  

"Respect yourself enough to walk away from anything that does not serve you, grow you, or make you happy."

This is a lesson that I really need to learn for myself.  And that I have started to learn over the past couple of weeks.

As most of you know I was adopted. When I was 5 weeks old my grandmother (I'll call her Mom) showed up at my biological mom's (I'll call her Tammy) house.  She found me, screaming in a dirty bassinet. Tammy was lying in her bed screaming back at me.  My mom asked Tammy about a trash bag that was lying on the front porch.  "Why didn't Shawn take the trash out?"  It wasn't trash though. "That's not trash.. It's puppies." That was Tammy's response.  Her boyfriend, who didn't want me, didn't want the puppies HIS dog had given birth to, so he put them in a garbage bag and tied it shut.  He didn't even give them a second thought, HE DIDN'T CARE!

My mom took me that day, brought me to a safe environment.  She went back to Tammy's house a few days later to get more of my clothes.  Tammy, her boyfriend, and a couple friends were getting ready to go to the mall.  Tammy looked straight at my mom and said, "You're not bringing her back are you?" 

When Tammy and her boyfriend found out that they could no longer get as much financial aid from the state without me, they tried to get me back.  My mom was NOT going to let me go back to the hell hole they were living in.  Tammy and her boyfriend's sister showed up at my mom's house, screaming at and threatening to harm my mom.  But she didn't back down! She got a lawyer involved, and got custody of me.

To this day, Tammy still refuses to tell me why she didn't want me.  All she says is, "I don't know." She said once that she didn't have the money, but that can't be true.  She got income from the state, WIC, and other financial aid.  She constantly lies about it.  She tries to say that it wasn't because she didn't want me, but the statement made that day my mom went to get some of my clothes proves it was.

Onto my realization though:

After Tammy moved back in my freshman year of high school, I became depressed and perpetually angry.  And I realize now, it's because I have all sorts of pent up anger about what she did to me.  But now I know, I can't live like that.

I started  going to church again, and I've come to know that God put me on this path to prosper me, not hurt me.  I know that if I hadn't been found that day, I would NOT be the woman that I am today, and honestly, I'd probably be dead.  I would NEVER have the opportunities I have right now, nor would I have met any of the incredible people that I now have in my life.

And I've come to terms with the fact that Tammy was simply a womb donor.  He will judge her one day for her actions, so for now, I don't have to forget about what she did or forgive her, but I can let go of the frustration and anger.  Sometimes the things she does makes it hard to not get frustrated, but I don't have to anymore.

So on that note:

I want to sincerely thank the people that have made my life possible.  I have messed up quite a few times, but so have they.  Are failures have made us stronger, and brought us closer and I know I wouldn't be where I am if it wasn't for them. <3